A Journey into the Unknown: Embracing the Lifestyle

Hi everyone, nice to see you all again! As I start writing this, I am actually at a munch with my Master. I had a couple of other blogs written up, but I wasn't quite ready to post them yet as they're very personal. So let's have a lighthearted blog.

Last week, I moved to Germany to live full-time with my Master and embrace the lifestyle completely. It's been quite a journey, I must say. I attended my first munch, and I have to admit, I got very shy. It's difficult to communicate when you don't speak the same language as the others at the event. It's been an interesting experience, to say the least. Until last Wednesday, I had never had a session in public. It felt weird knowing that other people had seen me have a no-touching orgasm through a hypno session. It made me feel a bit exposed, but it also got me a bit horny at the same time. Thankfully, Master has been very supportive and takes care of me like a pro! I honestly feel so lucky to have Him guiding me through these times. He also did some bondage on me while everyone could watch. It was a nice feeling, but new, and since I'm already kind of shy, it took some getting used to. I've never been around people with the same mindset as we have, so I'm not used to not being judged. It's nice to actually experience this in a safe and controlled environment with someone (my Master) that I trust. Finally, at some point, I actually started to gain the confidence to talk to people by myself. It took quite some time, and Master had to push me a lot in order for me to get there. Now we're at a lifestyle BBQ, and it's a more relaxed atmosphere. People are being tied up, and for some reason, I'm actually wishing it was me being tied up for everyone to watch. But also, to show others that my Master is really good and basically show off His skills. It's a feeling I never thought I would experience or even long for. At the same time, I feel really insecure and scared that I won't fit in or give the wrong impression. What if they don't like me? I know that wouldn't be the end of the world, but it's still a scary thought to me, especially when I don't understand the language everyone speaks.

As I said, this is my first week living the lifestyle full-time. It's been a huge adjustment, and sometimes I have trouble getting into the slave headspace. This mainly happens when I get very excited about things. It makes me so happy that I kind of forget my place. I've already received a lot of corrections for displaying the wrong behavior and being a bit bratty. This is an absolute no-go within our protocol lifestyle. At the same time, I've discovered a lot about myself in just this week. Apparently, I'm into pet play and degradation/humiliation. There are some rules I have trouble following as well, like not looking into my Master's eyes without permission. But I think these things will come with time, and maybe I'm just overthinking everything. Am I the only one who has these problems? If you have any tips for me, please let me know!

At some point, Master hypnotized me. He made me crawl every time I wanted to go into another room (my knees still hurt). This went on for about two days, and I actually kind of enjoyed it. It made me, um... yeah, wet would be the right word. It was part of my correction and helped me understand my place. I hope that in the coming week, we can incorporate some more protocols/rituals, like taking off my clothes the moment we get home and putting on a collar. Maybe some bedtime rituals as well, like kneeling before the bed and asking permission before getting in. Having to say a mantra every time I want to go to bed. But I know that even this will come with time. Right now, the most important thing is for us to settle in and get used to being together 24/7. All I want now is to make my Master proud of the slave I'm becoming for Him. I hope to become everything He ever wished for, with my main purpose being to make Him happy.

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Edit: After I let Master read what I wrote here, we had a long session at the BBQ munch. It's now the next day, and my ass is still purple. At first, I felt very, very nervous about having a public session, but at some point, I kept repeating comforting sentences in my head. These are sentences that help me lower my anxiety and take me to a safe place, basically. I highly recommend this for those who are just as anxious as I am. Anyhow, fast forward, another Dom actually joined in. It was weird to have someone else beat my ass too, but I felt safe knowing Master was there to protect me. We realized that I have a very high pain tolerance, as my ass was bleeding and I found biting and spikes tickling to be pleasurable when it was supposed to hurt. For a moment, I thought and maybe still think that it's just a weird response from me, finding everything tickling. Master told me it's not weird; I just really like pain.

Overall, I really enjoyed it, and even now, I'm still enjoying it. It was a great first public session, and I had a lot of fun. Next time, it would be smart to bring a comfort item, like a pillow, as it helps with anxiety more than the safe place sentences. I rate this night a 9/10!

Thank you so much for reading my blog. I will definitely keep on posting about my journey as a submissive and full-time slave. I hope this blog resonates with the right people who might be struggling like I am. Love you all, and have a wonderful week! ❤️

The end result of my bum being beaten